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Saturday, February 28
Sperman is the man :))
Sperman is the man, our semi-hero :))
bah. I won't drink that artificial thang again. I feel like I'm fat again. :| It made my tummy bloat like that. I'm trying to apply this "be sexy in two weeks" If Liv Tyler made it, why can't I? She lost 10pounds. When you say diet, it means change. Chang your lifestyle. I want tuna steak right now!
OK! Mag, you're great! :)
OK! Mag, you're great! :)
Schedule for today :
10am-- tutor
12pm-- lunch
1pm till 5pm-- video shoot
5pm-- talks and walks
5:30pm-- ask mom to go out
6pm-- homeworks
I can't imagine that it's been a week. How tough it is. I don't know but I'm starting to believe on what Charles Lu had said on YM *Note : It is posted* Maybe, just maybe.
I don't wanna cry again. My pillow's been wet for I think a week now. I used to be a tough girl. But I guess now, I'm so vulnerable.
8:40am-- palpitating.
10am-- tutor
12pm-- lunch
1pm till 5pm-- video shoot
5pm-- talks and walks
5:30pm-- ask mom to go out
6pm-- homeworks
I can't imagine that it's been a week. How tough it is. I don't know but I'm starting to believe on what Charles Lu had said on YM *Note : It is posted* Maybe, just maybe.
I don't wanna cry again. My pillow's been wet for I think a week now. I used to be a tough girl. But I guess now, I'm so vulnerable.
8:40am-- palpitating.
Friday, February 27
Solitary Existence
My life. My health. My heart. My friends.
They told me to let go,
I was too naive not to.
I kept on waiting,
waiting for nothing.
you expect me to start it,
but how will it be?
another screaming?
another crying?
I wouldn't want it to be that way.
Since I love you,
like everyday.
I know you love the distance,
but what about me?
Don't be away,
please please stay.
Or if not,
I may someday be known,
as the girl
living her solitary existence.
I was too naive not to.
I kept on waiting,
waiting for nothing.
you expect me to start it,
but how will it be?
another screaming?
another crying?
I wouldn't want it to be that way.
Since I love you,
like everyday.
I know you love the distance,
but what about me?
Don't be away,
please please stay.
Or if not,
I may someday be known,
as the girl
living her solitary existence.
Thursday, February 26
desperate.
the pic maybe, just maybe explains it all.
Tuesday, February 24
Another Masabaw Post
Move in a little closer, take it to a whisper, say it a little louder. ♥
just missing those times when I'm still happy.
missing those times when we laugh naturally.
missing those times that I can open up freely.
missing those times when I look at his eyes.
missing those times when we intertwined.
missing the fragrance that I smell whenever he's around.
missing those jokes he cracks tho it sounds a bit cheesy.
I love those times when I look at him passionately.
Tho now I must tell,
it's seems so far away.
I am vulnerable and now I'm badly hurt.
I tend to hate poems.
Obviously I'm doing it now.
I'm mushy yes I am.
It's all because of you.
How Maine loves you,
how she truly cares for you,
and how badly she wants you.
Simple things that makes me a girl.
Simple things that makes my heart beat.
I don't know what to do.
I tend to hate listening to Miley Cyrus,
but what did you do?
You made me love her,
and now I'm listening to her too.
I tend to hate mushy people,
unfortunately I'm one of them now.
there's nothing I could do,
except wait for you.
to tell me how you feel,
love me or have loved me.
I know it may hurt for a while.
But I'm free,
Free to live, love, and laugh again.
The poem's not intended for the breakage of the bond that we've made,
but the poems for letting out,
every thing that I feel.
Again, I love you.
and that's real.
missing those times when we laugh naturally.
missing those times that I can open up freely.
missing those times when I look at his eyes.
missing those times when we intertwined.
missing the fragrance that I smell whenever he's around.
missing those jokes he cracks tho it sounds a bit cheesy.
I love those times when I look at him passionately.
Tho now I must tell,
it's seems so far away.
I am vulnerable and now I'm badly hurt.
I tend to hate poems.
Obviously I'm doing it now.
I'm mushy yes I am.
It's all because of you.
How Maine loves you,
how she truly cares for you,
and how badly she wants you.
Simple things that makes me a girl.
Simple things that makes my heart beat.
I don't know what to do.
I tend to hate listening to Miley Cyrus,
but what did you do?
You made me love her,
and now I'm listening to her too.
I tend to hate mushy people,
unfortunately I'm one of them now.
there's nothing I could do,
except wait for you.
to tell me how you feel,
love me or have loved me.
I know it may hurt for a while.
But I'm free,
Free to live, love, and laugh again.
The poem's not intended for the breakage of the bond that we've made,
but the poems for letting out,
every thing that I feel.
Again, I love you.
and that's real.
Okay, I stopped listening to The Script. Marié Digby it is. I like her song Better Off Alone.
So, ask again. "eh bakit better off alone?" bah! Ayoko nang magsalita, in the end ako rin naman yung mali diba?
Everything's clear to me now, my sickness won't be a hindrance. When I want my life to end, I would end it that way. Bah. What am I saying...
It's too complicated. I need someone who truly understand. Someone who truly cares.
Sharmaine, hindi ka nagkulang, sumobra lang. -- alam ko.
chyeah, tho I must tell, I ain't a fool. Pero pwede naring fool, since ngayon ko lang narealize. :)) ansabaw ma'an! masabaw mga pinopost ko. Random movement of a dying lady.
So, ask again. "eh bakit better off alone?" bah! Ayoko nang magsalita, in the end ako rin naman yung mali diba?
Everything's clear to me now, my sickness won't be a hindrance. When I want my life to end, I would end it that way. Bah. What am I saying...
It's too complicated. I need someone who truly understand. Someone who truly cares.
Sharmaine, hindi ka nagkulang, sumobra lang. -- alam ko.
chyeah, tho I must tell, I ain't a fool. Pero pwede naring fool, since ngayon ko lang narealize. :)) ansabaw ma'an! masabaw mga pinopost ko. Random movement of a dying lady.
Monday, February 23
french finger tips red lips, boy i'm noxious.
ASD ASD ASD ASD ASD--- i'm noxious.
I won't talk, till you finally see. That I'm fragile, once broken gets noxious. I tried to tell you, but you never listened. I'm tired of running. bah. I'm a lady, who gets tired too. Godbless you, loves.
Sharmaine Uy: ikaw ba si ASD?
charles94_lu: hindi.. Y?
charles94_lu: but I'm aware of that personware of that person's deed
Sharmaine Uy: who do you think might that person be?
charles94_lu: someone who's got grudges against you.
I won't talk, till you finally see. That I'm fragile, once broken gets noxious. I tried to tell you, but you never listened. I'm tired of running. bah. I'm a lady, who gets tired too. Godbless you, loves.
Sharmaine Uy: ikaw ba si ASD?
charles94_lu: hindi.. Y?
charles94_lu: but I'm aware of that personware of that person's deed
Sharmaine Uy: who do you think might that person be?
charles94_lu: someone who's got grudges against you.
Is it hard to walk away from things sometimes?
Yes, that's what I'm suffering from right now.
Do you think the media has an effect on young girls today?
Yes, it has a big effect on young girls. They die to be on tv.
Are there things in your life that you'll never be able to get over?
So much.
Do you find ripped jeans hot?
:) think so.
Any body piercing you think is absolutely disgusting?
Yes, the one on the tut.
Best Quentin Tarantino movie?
bah.
Do you like long hair?
For girls yeah.
Do you find a baby's laugh cute?
haha, I like kids so much. Yes
Don't you hate it when people play games with your head?
No, I find it sweet. But don't abuse pls.
Ever wrote a letter to someone that went unanswered?
Yeah.
Nothing compares to what?
hmm..
Are you afraid of getting older?
Nope. I'd already accepted the fact that soon I'll be on a chair with white hair and all that.
Is there someone you know who cant behave?
Nope.
Is there someone who loves to cause drama in your life?
Yeah, think so, maybe. I don't know
Do you know a diabolical liar?
So far..
Do you let your animals sleep in the house?
NO WAY!
Do you wish you had someones girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope, as much as possible, get your OWN.
Got into major trouble in school?
I'm trying not.
Do you pray people never forget you?
haha, I can't do that.
What accent do you go goo-goo over?
dunno.
Blonde, brown, black, or red hair?
Black.
Don't you hate always having to prove yourself?
I'm not hating it, maybe annoyed.
It sucks being let down, doesn't it?
You don't know how it feels.
Ever felt like you were stuck in a deep hole?
Now.
Do you think your eyes say a lot about you?
They say it so.
Is there a side of you that people don't see?
None, I try to be all natural.
Is there a tattoo you regret getting?
Don't even have one.
When is the last time you sat around a campfire?
Last last summer.
Is there an important event coming up at your school?
Yeah. NAT
Do you have a back-up career choice? What is it?
back-up is uhh, sanitary engineering. LOL!
Would you ever get caught with a fake ID?
maybe.
Is there a comic book store in your city?
Yeah, malls.
Do you think religion justifies treating people unequally?
It don't.
Are men more attractive with longer or shorter hair?
haha, can't answer.
What colour was the ink of the last pen you used?
black
Do you know how to tie a necktie?
I think.
Have you ever attended a benefit dinner?
I don't remember.
Is there a name that you hear and cringe?
none.
What's one question you're sick of seeing in surveys?
:)) anything related to sex.
Say something in Spanish:
te amo.
Did you ever think that running away would solve your problems?
No.
Where was the last place to which you rode a taxi?
I can't remember, wait wait. Last year, Lyka's birthday.
How long does it usually take you to read a decent-sized book?
a week or two.
What was the last computer game you played?
Red Alert.
What colour are your dad's eyes?
Black
Could you choreograph a dance routine?
Yes of course
Have you ever left your hair in braids overnight, then taken them out to make your hair look crimped?
NO :))
Would you say you were a cute kid?
:))
Can you handle a lot of drama?
NO!!!
Have you watched "Prop 8 The Musical" on funnyordie?
nope.
How would you react if your mom told you she's gay?
What?!
Do you remember wearing tear-away pants?
No
Can you count to 100 in another language?
Yes!
Have you ever donated clothes?
Yes!
When you were a kid, was there a boy/girl that you said you were going to marry?
hahaha! I wish I did that.
What was the last sparkly thing you wore?
Diamonds around my neck. :P
Is it hard for you to trust someone?
Right now, no. Last last week, yes.
What's the shortest length you've ever cut your hair?
Boy cut. :P
Do you always turn the light off when you leave a room?
Yes.
Is your favourite TV show very popular?
No. :)) fortunately
When was the first time you used a lighter?
Candle thang.
Where would you rather be right now?
Somewhere I belong
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Yes, that's what I'm suffering from right now.
Do you think the media has an effect on young girls today?
Yes, it has a big effect on young girls. They die to be on tv.
Are there things in your life that you'll never be able to get over?
So much.
Do you find ripped jeans hot?
:) think so.
Any body piercing you think is absolutely disgusting?
Yes, the one on the tut.
Best Quentin Tarantino movie?
bah.
Do you like long hair?
For girls yeah.
Do you find a baby's laugh cute?
haha, I like kids so much. Yes
Don't you hate it when people play games with your head?
No, I find it sweet. But don't abuse pls.
Ever wrote a letter to someone that went unanswered?
Yeah.
Nothing compares to what?
hmm..
Are you afraid of getting older?
Nope. I'd already accepted the fact that soon I'll be on a chair with white hair and all that.
Is there someone you know who cant behave?
Nope.
Is there someone who loves to cause drama in your life?
Yeah, think so, maybe. I don't know
Do you know a diabolical liar?
So far..
Do you let your animals sleep in the house?
NO WAY!
Do you wish you had someones girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope, as much as possible, get your OWN.
Got into major trouble in school?
I'm trying not.
Do you pray people never forget you?
haha, I can't do that.
What accent do you go goo-goo over?
dunno.
Blonde, brown, black, or red hair?
Black.
Don't you hate always having to prove yourself?
I'm not hating it, maybe annoyed.
It sucks being let down, doesn't it?
You don't know how it feels.
Ever felt like you were stuck in a deep hole?
Now.
Do you think your eyes say a lot about you?
They say it so.
Is there a side of you that people don't see?
None, I try to be all natural.
Is there a tattoo you regret getting?
Don't even have one.
When is the last time you sat around a campfire?
Last last summer.
Is there an important event coming up at your school?
Yeah. NAT
Do you have a back-up career choice? What is it?
back-up is uhh, sanitary engineering. LOL!
Would you ever get caught with a fake ID?
maybe.
Is there a comic book store in your city?
Yeah, malls.
Do you think religion justifies treating people unequally?
It don't.
Are men more attractive with longer or shorter hair?
haha, can't answer.
What colour was the ink of the last pen you used?
black
Do you know how to tie a necktie?
I think.
Have you ever attended a benefit dinner?
I don't remember.
Is there a name that you hear and cringe?
none.
What's one question you're sick of seeing in surveys?
:)) anything related to sex.
Say something in Spanish:
te amo.
Did you ever think that running away would solve your problems?
No.
Where was the last place to which you rode a taxi?
I can't remember, wait wait. Last year, Lyka's birthday.
How long does it usually take you to read a decent-sized book?
a week or two.
What was the last computer game you played?
Red Alert.
What colour are your dad's eyes?
Black
Could you choreograph a dance routine?
Yes of course
Have you ever left your hair in braids overnight, then taken them out to make your hair look crimped?
NO :))
Would you say you were a cute kid?
:))
Can you handle a lot of drama?
NO!!!
Have you watched "Prop 8 The Musical" on funnyordie?
nope.
How would you react if your mom told you she's gay?
What?!
Do you remember wearing tear-away pants?
No
Can you count to 100 in another language?
Yes!
Have you ever donated clothes?
Yes!
When you were a kid, was there a boy/girl that you said you were going to marry?
hahaha! I wish I did that.
What was the last sparkly thing you wore?
Diamonds around my neck. :P
Is it hard for you to trust someone?
Right now, no. Last last week, yes.
What's the shortest length you've ever cut your hair?
Boy cut. :P
Do you always turn the light off when you leave a room?
Yes.
Is your favourite TV show very popular?
No. :)) fortunately
When was the first time you used a lighter?
Candle thang.
Where would you rather be right now?
Somewhere I belong
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Sunday, February 22
100th Post Reserved for ASD.
hEY, POLLOI.
WHAT DO YOU WANT? ASD ASD ASD. SINABI KO NANG INTINDIHIN MO, ANUNG PARTE BA DON DI MO MAINTINDIHAN. I'M TRYING TO BE NICE HERE. BAH! BUT YOU, YOU'RE ABUSING MY PATIENCE TO A KIND OF PERSON LIKE YOU. I'LL GET IT STRAIGHT.
YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO POST YOUR NAME,ASD! YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO REVEAL YOUR IDENTITY. WHY? BECAUSE YOU'RE AFRAID? TOO AFRAID THAT I MIGHT CONFRONT YOU AND TELL THINGS THAT YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR?
I'M AFRAID THAT YOU GOT OVER YOUR BOUNDARIES.
MY LIFE IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
IF YOU'RE TRYING TO RUIN THE BOND BETWEEN LANZ AND I, UGH, DON'T! PLEASE. I'M BEGGING YOU.
WHAT DO YOU WANT? ASD ASD ASD. SINABI KO NANG INTINDIHIN MO, ANUNG PARTE BA DON DI MO MAINTINDIHAN. I'M TRYING TO BE NICE HERE. BAH! BUT YOU, YOU'RE ABUSING MY PATIENCE TO A KIND OF PERSON LIKE YOU. I'LL GET IT STRAIGHT.
YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO POST YOUR NAME,ASD! YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO REVEAL YOUR IDENTITY. WHY? BECAUSE YOU'RE AFRAID? TOO AFRAID THAT I MIGHT CONFRONT YOU AND TELL THINGS THAT YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR?
I'M AFRAID THAT YOU GOT OVER YOUR BOUNDARIES.
MY LIFE IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
IF YOU'RE TRYING TO RUIN THE BOND BETWEEN LANZ AND I, UGH, DON'T! PLEASE. I'M BEGGING YOU.
Saturday, February 21
FOR MR/MS ASD
To : ASD.
Listen to the song, you might want to relate it somehow to your life. I'm not pinpointing someone here. Are you thinking about Karlo? You said "dati". Well, Karlo and I never had a thing, although somehow there is, however it never gotten beyond the line. Don't make another issue if your planning to. I'm happy now, and I don't want another fight with Lanz.
Songs are often misunderstood, or might I say, songs are often misunderstood and always interpreted as how a person truly cares and loves someone.
For the past few days, I got in a situation with my 'rents regarding how should I take care of myself. And I was quite choking about that. And to the mere fact that the song's explaining somewhat a little about how I feel. That's the reason why I posted that pathetic post.
I would be very very happy if you try to understand this. Mister/Miss, I'm effin happy about this week. I never did got a fight with my significant other. And I don't want this to be another reason of a lame fight. I hate fights.
I won't be angry or what. I just wanted to clear these things. I know you know what I'm dealing with right now. Just think of it, what if this is your situation, would you post something rather ending your life?
Obviously, you'd rather post. That's how we explain it right?
So I was saying. Don't think of it as another reason for me to get depress and all that. You know how much I love him.
Mister/Miss ASD. Please, look at the situation. I would be please then.
Thank you very much for your consideration!
Godbless!
Hearts,
Maine Uy.
Listen to the song, you might want to relate it somehow to your life. I'm not pinpointing someone here. Are you thinking about Karlo? You said "dati". Well, Karlo and I never had a thing, although somehow there is, however it never gotten beyond the line. Don't make another issue if your planning to. I'm happy now, and I don't want another fight with Lanz.
Songs are often misunderstood, or might I say, songs are often misunderstood and always interpreted as how a person truly cares and loves someone.
For the past few days, I got in a situation with my 'rents regarding how should I take care of myself. And I was quite choking about that. And to the mere fact that the song's explaining somewhat a little about how I feel. That's the reason why I posted that pathetic post.
I would be very very happy if you try to understand this. Mister/Miss, I'm effin happy about this week. I never did got a fight with my significant other. And I don't want this to be another reason of a lame fight. I hate fights.
I won't be angry or what. I just wanted to clear these things. I know you know what I'm dealing with right now. Just think of it, what if this is your situation, would you post something rather ending your life?
Obviously, you'd rather post. That's how we explain it right?
So I was saying. Don't think of it as another reason for me to get depress and all that. You know how much I love him.
Mister/Miss ASD. Please, look at the situation. I would be please then.
Thank you very much for your consideration!
Godbless!
Hearts,
Maine Uy.
Whoa! Fun fun fun. Details to be posted soon.
Ms. Jem, cracked a joke about her real name as Jinebra San Miguel, kakagat na sana ako. Eh naisip ko, hanep, Jinebra ang sagwa ah. Bah.
Home alone, bought my own dinner, then stayed inside my room slept for a while then there. :P
I'm tired. I hate my hair. I hate it :))
Miss the significant other.
NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT -- soon! tutorials next week! See ya there
Ms. Jem, cracked a joke about her real name as Jinebra San Miguel, kakagat na sana ako. Eh naisip ko, hanep, Jinebra ang sagwa ah. Bah.
Home alone, bought my own dinner, then stayed inside my room slept for a while then there. :P
I'm tired. I hate my hair. I hate it :))
Miss the significant other.
NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT -- soon! tutorials next week! See ya there
Friday, February 20
I AM SUPERMAINE.
Dang, Science's exhibit is tomorrow, I haven't edited those things that are to be edited. Although, background's done. Oh for heaven's sake, it's just the background. What about the content of the bulletin? Jeez, I can't take this anymore. I need a break.
Book Report is next week and guess what? I'm just half way through. Lame lame lame.
NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT :|
Current Mode : Mixed.
Book Report is next week and guess what? I'm just half way through. Lame lame lame.
NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT NAT :|
Current Mode : Mixed.
Wednesday, February 18
naststress na ako.
Goodnight and Goodbye.
I'm tired of everything, tired of running like a dog begging for its lunch, anu ako hayup?!
I'm sick of the ooh's and the aah's and the falalala's, anu ako tanga?
I'm choked by the style the talks the laughs, anu ako fan?
I'm annoyed whenever I check it everyday, anu ako redbolpen?
I'm pissed by the looks the followers and the jerkettes, anu ako patay-malisha?
Lastly, I'm super duper sick tired choked annoyed and pissed by letting me be who I don't want to be. Anu ako ogag para sundin lang yun, yung ginusto ng may gusto?
Wow, nek nek you.
*I'm just letting it out.
I never been a fan of long goodbyes
I'm at the finishline
and you're just way too far behind
In the morning,
I got in the fight with myself
I got the bruises to prove it
Then I swallowed your words
and spit them right back out
And I guess we're really over,
so come over,
I'm not over it.
Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate,
I'm not desperate
A little bit possessive,
little miss obsessive,
can't get over it.
Now,
it's like a fairy tale without a happy ending
But then again maybe
we are just pretending
Why does it have to be so unfair?
Tell me that you care.
Tuesday, February 17
20:21:26
Hi. Yes, I got the thing sticked to my body now, and it's so annoying! And they even asked me to jot down every moment of my day. It's so annoying. Well, I missed the recitals, too bad yeah. When I got back at around 4:40pm, the whole HS Dept weren't dismissed yet, I'd even thought that they raptured already :)) bla lame. Anyways, I still got something to accomplish, yeah poor Maine.
Headache tonight, SOS please.
Headache tonight, SOS please.
Monday, February 16
Survey again.
Stolen from Leonard Lacs again :x
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now? oh noes not again, nahiya na ako sa last post ko. Lanz <3
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time? Blargh!
099. Do you believe in God? YES :)
001. Name: Sharmaine Ann Bartolome Uy
002. Nicknames: Maine, Bartolome, Ms. S (does this count?)
003. Status: Married
004. Zodiac sign: Virgo
005. Male or female: Female
006. Gradeschool: St. Stephen's High School
007. Highschool: St. Stephen's High School
008. College: Ateneo De Manila University
009. Residence: Manila, Philippines.
010. Hair color: Black
011. Long or short hair: Kinda long.
012. Smoke: No
013. Drink: No.
014. Available: No
015. Health freak: Of course.
016. Height: 5
017. Crush: I'm crushing on guys who got great sense of humor.
018. Do you like yourself: Why not?
019. Piercings: Ears
020. Righty or lefty: Righty.
021. Tattoos: None
022. First surgery: None
023. First piercing: Ears
024. First bestfriend/s: Lyka Tabalon.
025. First award: Pre-school
027. First pet: Dog.
028. First vacation: Blaa!
029. First date: Wish I had one.
030. First crush: Charles Tan.
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating: Nothing
050. Drinking: Nothing
052. I'm about: To sleep.
053. Listening to: The Script.
FAVORITE
054. Food: :| Alfredo's Vintage Steaks.
055.Drink/s: Water.
056. Color/s: Red, Black, Orange
057. Number/s: 8, 54, 18
YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids: Yesness!
059. Want to get married: Stated below.
060. Careers in mind: Racer, Entrepreneur.
WHICH IS BETTER? :
068. Lips or eyes: Eyes tell us more.
069. Hugs or kisses: Kisses.
070. Shorter or taller: Taller :|
072. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both :>
074. Sensitive or loud: none
075. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant: Both
HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger: Probably yeah.
079. Drank bubbles: Nope
080. Lost glasses/contacts: Glasses.
081. Ran away from home: Nope
082. Liked someone younger: Yep.
083. Older: Yes
084. Broken someone's heart: Yeah
085. Been arrested: Neve.
086. Turned someone down: Maybe.
087. Cried when someone died: Yeah
088. Liked a friend: :)) of course
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. In yourself: Yes
090. Miracles: Yes
091. Love at first sight: YES
092. Heaven: Yeah
093. Santa claus: Not really
094. Sex on the first date: like what Lacz said, it is possible! :))
095. the more you hate, the more you love: Yes
096. Angels: Yeah
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now? oh noes not again, nahiya na ako sa last post ko. Lanz <3
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time? Blargh!
099. Do you believe in God? YES :)
I ditch tutor today. I got another attack, yeah. Blargh!
I did not asked for this to happen. Tomorrow I'll be out by 2pm. And won't be back, because I'll be having that apparatus which will monitor my heart if in case I'll have my attack again.
I miss Lanz, I miss everything about him. I miss his scent. I miss his hands on mine. I miss his eyes. I miss him like crazy. Although, I still can't look at his face because of the fight.. Blaa! Let's get over it.
My mom's cooking bla, bitter foods. Since I'm not allowed to eat those kinds of things. Plus I am allowed to eat one cup of rice per day. Yes, per day which means breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Music practice again tomorrow, I wonder if I'll catch the practice or not. I hate this part right here.
HIATUS it's a lie. :)) as you can see I'm still posting. :P
I did not asked for this to happen. Tomorrow I'll be out by 2pm. And won't be back, because I'll be having that apparatus which will monitor my heart if in case I'll have my attack again.
I miss Lanz, I miss everything about him. I miss his scent. I miss his hands on mine. I miss his eyes. I miss him like crazy. Although, I still can't look at his face because of the fight.. Blaa! Let's get over it.
My mom's cooking bla, bitter foods. Since I'm not allowed to eat those kinds of things. Plus I am allowed to eat one cup of rice per day. Yes, per day which means breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Music practice again tomorrow, I wonder if I'll catch the practice or not. I hate this part right here.
HIATUS it's a lie. :)) as you can see I'm still posting. :P
Sunday, February 15
Random.
I WANT TO GET MARRIED :)
I over acted about what my mom and dad told me last night. I was all wrong, it's not surgery. Thankness!
Know what, bloggy? I'm starting to regret something, how I wish I never done that. Blargh! Now I'm the loser again. Psh. ttfn. IP's done! Yahoo!
`till the next posts.
Know what, bloggy? I'm starting to regret something, how I wish I never done that. Blargh! Now I'm the loser again. Psh. ttfn. IP's done! Yahoo!
`till the next posts.
falalala. Stuck inside my four cornered room, chatting, texting, blogging. Blaa! I hate it!
Last night, how I wish I was out with someone. Or maybe out all by myself. And what's even worse? When my mom & dad got back, all they told me is "Sharmaine, may ididikit na aparato jan sa heart mo para masubaybayan beat ng heart mo and yung sakit mo" Freak, I'm not buying for any surgery. I don't want. I can live with my illness, I just need good support and encouragement, not for any surgery. And of course I don't wanna have artificial eck in me. I'm better off like this.
Last night, how I wish I was out with someone. Or maybe out all by myself. And what's even worse? When my mom & dad got back, all they told me is "Sharmaine, may ididikit na aparato jan sa heart mo para masubaybayan beat ng heart mo and yung sakit mo" Freak, I'm not buying for any surgery. I don't want. I can live with my illness, I just need good support and encouragement, not for any surgery. And of course I don't wanna have artificial eck in me. I'm better off like this.
Saturday, February 14
New Post
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, GUEST.
The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do
The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do
mileycyrus//seventhings
Seven in the morning, my alarm clock woke me up. I kept on whispering to myself that this day's gonna be fine, a normal one, although I'm not so sure if it's really going to happen. It was eight when I suddenly felt some throbbing again, the throb that scares me to death, I'm under attack. My dad's telling me not to attend my tutorial class but I insisted. They took my blood pressure, and it was not okay. Half past eight was my tutor time, and just so you know, I don't have any books in hand. I was with Jes that time, and I still don't know what she's hiding from me. Not till the time when I broke in to my locker and saw the thing they all are hiding from me. It was Lanz's Valentine's gift. I was surprised. And I was like "Wow, eto pala yung tinatago tago niyo saakin." Honestly pinagpapawisan ako that time. I read the letter, and it was sweet. And was like laughing to death because of Lanz's handwriting, I can't read some of his words. 10:30am--- Tutor's done, couples around, couples everywhere and this makes me feel alone. Although literally I'm not, but then alone. I know I don't have the reason to, but look at the situation. 1pm-- another terrible attack, I can't breathe. Another spooky beat. The beat that also scares me to death. My Tita Gem told me not to go to our practice since nangingitim na ako sa sobrang hirap na paghinga. And that's true.
I don't know what to do, but it's so hard to act as if every thing's okay when it's not okay. It's so hard to act normal when it's not normal anymore. Sometimes, I can't help but think about death, maybe death's the answer to everything. I'm wasted.
I don't know what to do, but it's so hard to act as if every thing's okay when it's not okay. It's so hard to act normal when it's not normal anymore. Sometimes, I can't help but think about death, maybe death's the answer to everything. I'm wasted.
Friday, February 13
your secrets
I'm not going to react as if I were a brat wanting something from her mother.
Yesterday, I got a call from my mom telling me after class I should go straight to the hospital since I got another attack. I'm quite disappointed when I received the call, though I'm delighted that finally medications are going to be present regarding my illness.
4:15pm came like hell. People will have parties after class, while me, stuck in a four cornered room with a doctor telling what to do and what not to do. Since my mother told me to go straight, I decided to drop by at McDonald's to buy ice cream, which means I didn't go "straight" to the hospital. My dad's been calling me, and obviously I wasn't able to answer their calls due to the fact that I'm walking on the streets of hell. My aunt texted me, she said room 218b's where I'm going. But before I had the chance of breaking into various rooms, my aunt appeared shouting "Sharm! Dito dalian mo." ending up the whole hospital's hearing my name, and dying to know who "Sharm" was. I got in, and I was quite pissed by the doctor's secretary. She's so pilosopo and I would have ended giving her a punch in the face. But didn't happen, after quite a long wait, my dad finally came. We went inside. The doctor's much pilospo than his secretary. But this doctor's great. He asked me alot of question, and I answered like an actress. And what made me calm down is that, this doctor makes face after every question he asks. And I ended up laughing on the inside. After that, here goes the what-to-do's and what-not-to-do's. We're inside his clinic for 2 hours. Bored much? Well I must say yes. And what do teenagers normally do? Yes, beep their friends. So I kept on opening my phone checking if there are messages unread. And after that, the doctor said out loud. "Sharmaine, you've got your phone opened for like 28 times" and I ended up blushing in front of my dad, mom and aunt. That's not funny.
6:30pm, that's the time when I got home. I rushed into my room, opened my laptop and do some posting. Since, my YM onlines automatically, and people heard the news about me having the check up, PMs flooded me. And what I'm dying to know is that, what secrets are they hiding from me? I'm all messed up with what happened to me for the past few days, and it seemed like Lanz and I don't even have the guts to talk in person. Though, I think we're fine now, because I can kid around on text. And the call-me-babe is on the loose. Though I must tell, I'm still depress. So going back. Charles Lu Pmed me, he started with a quick fine hello, mood? And Wilson came around like, Alam ko na yung sa 14. And the rest of you, are you guys hiding something from me? Erika & Jes does. Sighs. Energy boosts down to zero. Don't keep my adrenalin up, I might have cardiac arrest any time soon.
Yesterday, I got a call from my mom telling me after class I should go straight to the hospital since I got another attack. I'm quite disappointed when I received the call, though I'm delighted that finally medications are going to be present regarding my illness.
4:15pm came like hell. People will have parties after class, while me, stuck in a four cornered room with a doctor telling what to do and what not to do. Since my mother told me to go straight, I decided to drop by at McDonald's to buy ice cream, which means I didn't go "straight" to the hospital. My dad's been calling me, and obviously I wasn't able to answer their calls due to the fact that I'm walking on the streets of hell. My aunt texted me, she said room 218b's where I'm going. But before I had the chance of breaking into various rooms, my aunt appeared shouting "Sharm! Dito dalian mo." ending up the whole hospital's hearing my name, and dying to know who "Sharm" was. I got in, and I was quite pissed by the doctor's secretary. She's so pilosopo and I would have ended giving her a punch in the face. But didn't happen, after quite a long wait, my dad finally came. We went inside. The doctor's much pilospo than his secretary. But this doctor's great. He asked me alot of question, and I answered like an actress. And what made me calm down is that, this doctor makes face after every question he asks. And I ended up laughing on the inside. After that, here goes the what-to-do's and what-not-to-do's. We're inside his clinic for 2 hours. Bored much? Well I must say yes. And what do teenagers normally do? Yes, beep their friends. So I kept on opening my phone checking if there are messages unread. And after that, the doctor said out loud. "Sharmaine, you've got your phone opened for like 28 times" and I ended up blushing in front of my dad, mom and aunt. That's not funny.
6:30pm, that's the time when I got home. I rushed into my room, opened my laptop and do some posting. Since, my YM onlines automatically, and people heard the news about me having the check up, PMs flooded me. And what I'm dying to know is that, what secrets are they hiding from me? I'm all messed up with what happened to me for the past few days, and it seemed like Lanz and I don't even have the guts to talk in person. Though, I think we're fine now, because I can kid around on text. And the call-me-babe is on the loose. Though I must tell, I'm still depress. So going back. Charles Lu Pmed me, he started with a quick fine hello, mood? And Wilson came around like, Alam ko na yung sa 14. And the rest of you, are you guys hiding something from me? Erika & Jes does. Sighs. Energy boosts down to zero. Don't keep my adrenalin up, I might have cardiac arrest any time soon.
*Friday the thirteenth, falalala.
*I asked my dad if I can have my driver's license by next month, and he said yes. Gush I can't wait. This is the beauty :P The rusty halo has been shined again.
*Hot N Cold. blargh!
*I feel sad about everything again. blarghing love.
*Neyo Neyo Neyo. Girl can we chill.
*I'm just typing what's on my mind. Pardon the mess.
*I have Scoliosis and Mitral Valve Prolapse, I'm ill. Yeah, but whatevs, I'm living my life. Live your life Rihanna.
*I found God.
*And you found me.
*Never say never The Fray.
*I asked my dad if I can have my driver's license by next month, and he said yes. Gush I can't wait. This is the beauty :P The rusty halo has been shined again.
*Hot N Cold. blargh!
*I feel sad about everything again. blarghing love.
*Neyo Neyo Neyo. Girl can we chill.
*I'm just typing what's on my mind. Pardon the mess.
*I have Scoliosis and Mitral Valve Prolapse, I'm ill. Yeah, but whatevs, I'm living my life. Live your life Rihanna.
*I found God.
*And you found me.
*Never say never The Fray.
Thursday, February 12
i got another attack.
9:50 am, History Class, Discussing with Group--- I got another attack, I can't hardly breathe. I believe I'm having one of my valves stuck again. Sir Ping asked me to go down to the clinic, I kept on insisting that I'm fine but I guess they found me pale again. I'm having the hard time dealing with this sickness. Dealing with those hunches on when it's going to kill me, when is it gonna attack. My friends tried to comfort me, and to my surprise even Sir Ping. He asked me if I did all the test that requires a person before doctors diagnose them from having this kind of sickness. I told him yes, I did the 2-D Echo, ECG, Pulmonary thing. And I told him about the MVP. He said, I should take care of myself. Live my life. As I've said, this thing is something to worry about. But on the other side of the things that I encountered a while ago, one thing made my day is that we don't have classes tomorrow. That means rest. I got the whole day for it. Maybe you're asking about Valentine's, honestly, I'm free @ 3pm on Feb14. I know you know what happened to me. And speaking of that, during our CE period, we got this song sang by a couple of people, the song's Drowning by the BSB. It is so my soundtrack now. I even asked Nielsen to write down the lyrics, that way the whole class can sing with me.
I'm fine now, maybe. Just maybe.
Friends, thanks for giving me a reason to live my life again.
God, thank you.
I'm fine now, maybe. Just maybe.
Friends, thanks for giving me a reason to live my life again.
God, thank you.
According to Wikipedia:
"Mitral valve prolapse (MVP) is a valvular heart disease characterized by the displacement of an abnormally thickened mitral valve leaflet into the left atrium during systole. In its nonclassic form, MVP carries a low risk of complications.[1] In severe cases of classic MVP, complications include mitral regurgitation, infective endocarditis, and — in rare circumstances — cardiac arrest, usually resulting in sudden death."
*I'm living my life, normal normal normal life. thanks to Karlo, Karla, Charles, Felia, Ched, Valerie, Chun, Wilson, Kurt, Mark, Jirel, Adrian, Jinger, Erika, Jessica, Czarina Bundoc, Aaron Ang, Jade, Nielsen, Brian, Jzan, Edrick, Justen and etc. To those who I failed to mention, a big thank you's to you.
Mark thank you for the arbored tissue.
Edrick Catungal: God loves u still ^_^
Felia, thanks for offering your polo
Jirel, ice cream ma'an
Wilson, yeah bespren :P
Ched, I'm all about it.
Charles && Karla, looking after me. ( i still can't believe you followed me, i need soda )
Karlo, thanks.
I'm not scared to die. I'm scared of leaving these individuals behind. I hope you guys will have the chance to read this. But before the worst, I love you all.
"Mitral valve prolapse (MVP) is a valvular heart disease characterized by the displacement of an abnormally thickened mitral valve leaflet into the left atrium during systole. In its nonclassic form, MVP carries a low risk of complications.[1] In severe cases of classic MVP, complications include mitral regurgitation, infective endocarditis, and — in rare circumstances — cardiac arrest, usually resulting in sudden death."
*I'm living my life, normal normal normal life. thanks to Karlo, Karla, Charles, Felia, Ched, Valerie, Chun, Wilson, Kurt, Mark, Jirel, Adrian, Jinger, Erika, Jessica, Czarina Bundoc, Aaron Ang, Jade, Nielsen, Brian, Jzan, Edrick, Justen and etc. To those who I failed to mention, a big thank you's to you.
Mark thank you for the arbored tissue.
Edrick Catungal: God loves u still ^_^
Felia, thanks for offering your polo
Jirel, ice cream ma'an
Wilson, yeah bespren :P
Ched, I'm all about it.
Charles && Karla, looking after me. ( i still can't believe you followed me, i need soda )
Karlo, thanks.
I'm not scared to die. I'm scared of leaving these individuals behind. I hope you guys will have the chance to read this. But before the worst, I love you all.
Tuesday, February 10
i was shocked when i heard the bad news.
I must have been really tired for the past few days. I'm not Anemic, that isn't my sickness to worry about. I am dealing with heart disorders. I have abnormal heart, my heart doesn't beat normal. It's fast yet it doesn't follow the right way to pump my blood. I am not allowed to be sad, tired, shocked nor surprised. Before the worst, I am indeed sad right now, depress to be exact. For this day, I cried thrice. Emotions thrilled me and it caused my eyes to spill tears in my face. I don't know what to do, but then I resisted the pain and dropping of the tears. Due to the fact that I don't want my classmates to see me crying, nor for them to talk about me and say that I'm so weak. They told me that every thing's gonna be alright. Two Blue will always be there for me and won't leave me. And to my surprise they did their part. They made me laugh besides this emotional blow. Don't get me wrong. I am still in love with Lanz. They asked me to move on, but I just can't. No matter how much I resist the pain. I love Lanz so much, I wanted a word. But chances are low. I wanted his touch, but they won't let me. Mushy it is. I'm so sad. I want to cry more. But now I'll cry an ocean. For now, I guess that's the best thing to do.
(c)thescriptinspired//themanwhocan'tbemoved.
Lanz, I love you.
(c)thescriptinspired//themanwhocan'tbemoved.
Lanz, I love you.
Monday, February 9
breakeven
here i am again, typing everything out. i'm you know, doing this again. how can i ever stop? bla bla bla.
Saturday, February 7
the downfall
I am sick right now. Having headaches// palpitating heart. and etc. I need cure. Pls pls pls. Pray for my health & safety. My situation right now, is something to worry about. I'm just online to do something. The project. thanks thanks thanks.
