So ayan, alam kong alam niyong lahat na sobrang depress at frustrated ako ngayon. Hindi dahil sa mga tinotopak kong mga kasamahan kundi dahil sa isang tao na lagi ko nalang iniiyakan. Nakakainis, sobra carried away na ako. Ayan tuloy, nagkanightmare na ako. So ang kwento ganito.

One day ang scene is nasa bay kami. Yeah right, with my guitar since yun nga yung song "teardrops on my guitar". Depress na ako non, obvious. I was talking to that person, and I thought hahabulin niya ako para ipatahan niya ako from crying. So ayun, I ran away. And hinahabol niya ako. By the midst of the runnings, napagod ako dah? Nakakapagod tumakbo. 

Tapos tapos, eh may isang walang hiyang babae na tinawag siya. Eto mokong na to, syempre "kaibigan" niya daw yung babae na yun. Of course dun siya dumeretso. Leaving me there with my guitar. So nainis na ako, moment ko yun eh! Moment ko, etong pangit na babae na to, stineal nanaman saakin yung moment ko! So ayun, nag juramentado na ako dun. And then we were inside the car na.

Nasa car kami, may katabi akong guy, di ko siya kilala. And may katabi rin akong girl, so nasa gitna ako. Yung person na yun nasa driver's seat, so obvious siya nagdrdrive, and yung babaeng yon! KATABI NIYA! So I started crying again. And even said na.

"Ikaw lalaki ka! Pagod na pagod na ako sayo. Ilang beses na kitang iniyakan. Mahal kita sobra, ilang beses ko nang sinabi sayo yun. Andami kong sacrifices sayo, pero wala wala pala!"

And then this guy tried explaining again, as he explain, eventually nagmomorph yung mukha niya sa face ng dad ko. As in dad ko talaga. 

And then...

ayun nagising na ako.

Dream lang siguro. Or go on na talaga? :)) 

//desperate by davidarchuleta

Last camp, my counselor asked us what we feel about the coolest dudes and dudettes in our batch, what do we feel toward them. Obviously, I was speechless, I don't know what to say. Then she said "Sharmaine, I know you are part of this crowd. Just because you are part of that then maybe you can defend what your crowd feels" I was silent for a while then suddenly I told her that it's hard. It's hard to be one of those. And to tell you, sometimes I came to the point wherein my world's falling apart. Just then when I started trusting God and surrendered everything to Him. To be part of this crowd allows you to influence people. Yeah like I said, you are set to be an example to others. And so it brings me to this point.

Are you part of this crowd, dear reader? If yes, are you doing it right? And if not, why don't you turn around and surrender yourself to Him? Not because He has given you so much, doesn't mean you need to be proud and flaunt everything. It's never too late, dear one.

I happened to blog about this for some reasons. One, I have this friend who somewhat acts like this and he used to be close to God. I haven't talked to him lately, makes me worry each time. I pray he's alright. And for that, it is a part of my sufferings which I know in the end will be my glory. My hopes are high for this. Two, I finished reading the book written by Melody Carlson's True Colors Seried entitled Deep Green. There's this cheerleading captain there who's  a Christian and everybody was shocked when they heard it. Three, I don't want to be like that.

I hope you enjoyed reading this post, especially for those who are in the "crowd". I'll tell you this, it's never too late.

DAVID ARCHULETA IS LOVE

So ayan, alam kong alam niyong lahat na sobrang depress at frustrated ako ngayon. Hindi dahil sa mga tinotopak kong mga kasamahan kundi dahil sa isang tao na lagi ko nalang iniiyakan. Nakakainis, sobra carried away na ako. Ayan tuloy, nagkanightmare na ako. So ang kwento ganito.

One day ang scene is nasa bay kami. Yeah right, with my guitar since yun nga yung song "teardrops on my guitar". Depress na ako non, obvious. I was talking to that person, and I thought hahabulin niya ako para ipatahan niya ako from crying. So ayun, I ran away. And hinahabol niya ako. By the midst of the runnings, napagod ako dah? Nakakapagod tumakbo. 

Tapos tapos, eh may isang walang hiyang babae na tinawag siya. Eto mokong na to, syempre "kaibigan" niya daw yung babae na yun. Of course dun siya dumeretso. Leaving me there with my guitar. So nainis na ako, moment ko yun eh! Moment ko, etong pangit na babae na to, stineal nanaman saakin yung moment ko! So ayun, nag juramentado na ako dun. And then we were inside the car na.

Nasa car kami, may katabi akong guy, di ko siya kilala. And may katabi rin akong girl, so nasa gitna ako. Yung person na yun nasa driver's seat, so obvious siya nagdrdrive, and yung babaeng yon! KATABI NIYA! So I started crying again. And even said na.

"Ikaw lalaki ka! Pagod na pagod na ako sayo. Ilang beses na kitang iniyakan. Mahal kita sobra, ilang beses ko nang sinabi sayo yun. Andami kong sacrifices sayo, pero wala wala pala!"

And then this guy tried explaining again, as he explain, eventually nagmomorph yung mukha niya sa face ng dad ko. As in dad ko talaga. 

And then...

ayun nagising na ako.

Dream lang siguro. Or go on na talaga? :)) 

//desperate by davidarchuleta