A while ago, I confessed something to someone. I did it. I felt relieved. I said everything, cause I know that would be the nicest thing from me that would worth the moments we've been together. Not to mention all those secrets, lies, cries and things that made us to be here now. Finally I was given the chance to tell that someone the truth. I kept holding back, can't find the right words to say. Tongue tied, too afraid that that someone might run away from me and leave me behind. A friend once told me that everything shouldn't always be about the others, sometimes we should give time for ourselves. I should have something for myself too. I did it all because of him. Some promises weren't really suppose to be promises but I did it for that someone. My mistakes had led me away from that person. As I've said, maybe it just simply tells me to go on with my life. That person turned away from the things that I've been trying to say, like that person ain't there. I made so many U turns. Cause all the time I thought that would be the best thing for myself. But no matter how I try to let go, I just end up being with that person again. And when I knew it, I'll find myself doubting and questioning myself again. But that isn't the Maine now. My experiences led me to change myself and breakthrough everything. God has indeed prepared something spontaneous for me. Something that would worth my existence. Today, I had finally spoken up. Showed that person my trust, and how sorry I am. But it's up to that person to make the decision.

I have been using this blog as a crying shed since. I know that you are so tired of these things. These lame things I do whenever I feel down. And because of that I decided to close this down and not to use this ever again. I'm really sorry dear users. But I guess I have to let my feelings and thoughts be read by those people I knew personally. I respect that person, and I love that person too. And maybe this is not the best way to discuss everything about us. I've learned a lot. I believe everybody deserves a second chance. Another chance to make everything right again.